Shouldn't Be This Way

I can feel the night beginning,
Separate me from the living
Understanding me after all I've seen
Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only knew how to pull myself apart....

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
to make you see me
To be the one
I could have run forever
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?

Should it hurt to love you?
Should it feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door?
My ghosts are gaining on me....